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I remember Mr. Sung's scream at me at volleyball practice.
I remember he screamed, "If you can't get another ball, you are out of the team, and we are not starting the team practice until she gets at least one ball!"
I remember it was 10th times I missed the ball that he passed me.
I remember how fast the ball that Mr. Sung passed me was; it was definitely faster than anything that I have seen in my life. 
I remember the ball bounced off my arms out of the court-a place where I should never be passing the ball.
I remember the emotion I felt at that moment; I was miserable - everybody was watching me, wishing to continue the team practice after I get a ball properly, but I was keep failing. 
I remembered an article saying, 'if you are standing on the edge of a precipice, you will exhibit the potential that you have never experienced in your life.', which didn't fit to me.
I remember uncontrollable burst of tears that obstructed my field of vision; the ball was keep coming to me, but I could not properly see it. 
I remembered numerous 7th and 8th periods I spent to practice volleyball to be a setter (which I failed) or at least to guard my position in a team, doing my best to get a ball

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